Post Surgery

I had my double massectomy on March 12th. I was SUPER nervous going in to the surgery. Bryan made me a playlist of my favorite classical music to make me relax and calm myself down. It helped a ton! Isn't it funny how something as small as listening to music can calm you down.

Surgery went right as planned, yeahhhh! I was only able to have a liquid diet that night so I was super bummed after not eating for 24 hours and not getting my turkey sub Sam brought me:-( BTW Samantha Haldeman you are a saint! You have been with me and been my rock, other than Bryan, through this entire nightmare of a situation. I love you more than I can express and have no idea what I would have done without you going through this! Ok, sappy time;-) My night in the hospital was not as bad as last time. I actually slept during the times when I was not getting checked or when they were in and out with my roommate.

Now on to some relaxing, being pampered, and pain! I got my spot set up on the couch and did not move for days except for bathroom breaks when I needed help getting up. My parents had the kids for 10 days so I was able to focus on getting better.  Do you know how hard it is to sit on the couch for 2 weeks straight???? So not easy when you are use to being on the go.

So everything is still going well. I was hoping to get my drains out this past wed at my appt but that did not happen. I will be self conscious and uncomfortable through my bday and Easter weekend. Oh well, this is life. They will be taking them out on Mon, yeahhhhhhhhh! They will also start filling my spacers up so I won't feel like a 10 year old boy!

Jamer started daycare on Monday. I cried the entire day:-( The kido makes me crazy but I could not get past me being a stay at home mom with a kid in daycare. I know it is def the best thing for him but super tough on me when none of my kids have been in reg daycare and always in a co op preschool. Tues I felt better, it was a better transition in the morning and I was able to talk to his teachers. Bryan does drop off and pick up so I don't get that convo time. He is doing great!!!!!

I am still healing and feel like junk if I do to much during the day. I am taking it easy because I don't want to go backward in my recovery. My post op visit with my oncologist is April 16th. I will know the next steps from there.

Thank you so much for your prayers, love, and support. We started the meals back up and I hope you all know how much we appreciate and love your help. I am so behind on thank you letters/messages. You all have been spoiling me like crazy, thank you sooooooo much. I appreciate it more than you will ever know!

So Thankful

It has been a few weeks since my last post. I have been enjoying this time of feeling good and spending lots of time with my family and friends without being at doctors appointments or in the hospital 3-4 times a week. This upcoming Tuesday I will be having my double mastectomy along with reconstructive surgery. It is inpatient so we will be there overnight. At least this time we are planning for it so it will not be a surprise. Nonna will be watching the kids at my house for the 2 days I am in the hospital and my parents will then take the kids to Saratoga for 10 days. I am sure I will miss them but I am going to take this time for me to recover and heal so that when I get the kids back I will hopefully be able to move around pretty well.  

Bryan and I had to make a VERY hard decision to put Jamyson into daycare while I am recovering from the surgery. He will be full time until I am recovered and then part time through my chemo. Not only is it hard for me to be a stay at home Mom and put my kid in daycare, it makes me so very sad that I will not going to be able to take care of him for a few weeks. In the end we know this is the best decision for both him and I. We debated putting him in a center or at home care and thought with his energy level he needs a center to be around kids his own age as well as having daily structure. The place he is in has a huge playground, and a gymnasium with a bouncy bounce, bikes, scooters, cars, and slides. He is not going to want to come home:-) Financially this is going to be really hard but we are cutting back a lot and this is not a permanent thing. 

Today I spent my morning with Mady, Sam and Bella doing Muffins with Mom at the preschool and then on to a birthday party for their friend Heidi. Sitting here, I know these are going to be memories that we will all remember. Going through this process has made me appreciate the little things. I also do not take my friends and family for granted. Tonight the Haldeman's are coming over to do our "Thanksgiving" in March that we do every year. I am taking this silent moment while the kids are napping and Bry is out with Bryan Paul to be thankful for so many things in my life. I have a husband who loves me more than life itself. My kids are happy and healthy. I thank my lucky stars that this is happening to me and not one of them!!!!! I have a supportive , loving and healthy family. My friends, there are no words to express how much they have rallied and been with me through this entire process. Pretty much I a lucky girl!