So Thankful

It has been a few weeks since my last post. I have been enjoying this time of feeling good and spending lots of time with my family and friends without being at doctors appointments or in the hospital 3-4 times a week. This upcoming Tuesday I will be having my double mastectomy along with reconstructive surgery. It is inpatient so we will be there overnight. At least this time we are planning for it so it will not be a surprise. Nonna will be watching the kids at my house for the 2 days I am in the hospital and my parents will then take the kids to Saratoga for 10 days. I am sure I will miss them but I am going to take this time for me to recover and heal so that when I get the kids back I will hopefully be able to move around pretty well.  

Bryan and I had to make a VERY hard decision to put Jamyson into daycare while I am recovering from the surgery. He will be full time until I am recovered and then part time through my chemo. Not only is it hard for me to be a stay at home Mom and put my kid in daycare, it makes me so very sad that I will not going to be able to take care of him for a few weeks. In the end we know this is the best decision for both him and I. We debated putting him in a center or at home care and thought with his energy level he needs a center to be around kids his own age as well as having daily structure. The place he is in has a huge playground, and a gymnasium with a bouncy bounce, bikes, scooters, cars, and slides. He is not going to want to come home:-) Financially this is going to be really hard but we are cutting back a lot and this is not a permanent thing. 

Today I spent my morning with Mady, Sam and Bella doing Muffins with Mom at the preschool and then on to a birthday party for their friend Heidi. Sitting here, I know these are going to be memories that we will all remember. Going through this process has made me appreciate the little things. I also do not take my friends and family for granted. Tonight the Haldeman's are coming over to do our "Thanksgiving" in March that we do every year. I am taking this silent moment while the kids are napping and Bry is out with Bryan Paul to be thankful for so many things in my life. I have a husband who loves me more than life itself. My kids are happy and healthy. I thank my lucky stars that this is happening to me and not one of them!!!!! I have a supportive , loving and healthy family. My friends, there are no words to express how much they have rallied and been with me through this entire process. Pretty much I a lucky girl!